BEING WITH U~

LIFE LIKE SUMMER FLOWER 

 

PU song in his album that life is like the summerflower...legend nation,never lose my passion,it's on my way,on my way,these colorful days...

 

But to me,i lost my passion...but it's only for relationship,not my work or life...the worst of all,my dream of making friends here finally turns to a beautiful bubble.ever since I walked in,i have began to felt that it's not a good day..it is..without any doubt...a bad day...they took for granted that they should also be obeyed and have the right to instruct my work...that's only because i'm a late comer...so what,,i don't care..

 

the thing is i took for granted that if i do the job,its like doing a favor..what's in others' mind is that i should do it,be pleasant to do it,with smile and be grateful...it's beyond my working scope...indeed...i would always remember if u took others kindly,they would also treat you back in the same way...however,i'm wrong,compltely wrong..whatever you do,that's regarded as yur ceratain responsibilty..damn it...their own work turns to my rediculous responsibility...

 

life is really hard...that's not because of the silly work,it's people,the silly people made it hard...kindness here is what a stupid and rediculous thing..haha..it stroke me a lot...a new lesson.

 

 

feel like having no passion on everything..

 

don't know what's te matter with myself...when encountering difficult things,I'd choose to hide or go away...don't know when have I developed this bad habit...don't want to overcome...

 

life is tedious..I guess...I'm not god,I can't find happiness in trival things...is it because of I'm old...opps....can I back to innocent age??

these days,i made a serious mistake and i don't know whose faulit it is actually~

 

when i make these documents,my manager sent me the information of conginee,however,after everything settled,we found we forgot to add an important code to the consignee.i don't know whose fault it is then.

 

but i did feel guilty .whatever,i made these documents and surely,i have to bear some responsibility;meanwhile,even though my manager didn't send me complete information,can i blame her then?surely won't.

 

so i'm depressed all the way.....even wanna kill myself~may be i'm not suitable for this job....

~~the formost important thing is to make up,the penalty is high~~~should i bear the charge?????

i even want to sacrifice all my salary to make up,but do i deserve that?need i react  like that?

they don't even know whose fault it is,if i don't make things and reponsibility clearly,surely,i have to bear the mistake~~all blame will come to me~what can i do????

 

god,help me~~bear,i'd feel innocent and undeserved;if not,i'd feel guilty~~

why do i think too much???stupid...idiot.....i am crazy about it now~~~~who's gonna save me out.........

a completely lazy bone

i mean myself~

 

waiting to be hired

waiting to be well hired

with high salary long vacation short working hours 

 

wow,nice

but not for me.

 

day dreamer~

better stand on the ground,step by step.

don't lose heat,honey,there won't be the best but there'll be the suitablest.